The Pain of Child Bearing

Yesterday morning was suddenly having this thought again.. the thought about the pain that a woman has to go through when she's giving birth to baby... the excruciating pain... i wonder i could stand the pain too. Couldn't understand fully why suddenly i would have this thinking... until later...

Once a fren of mine smsed me... to tell how fearful she was... while she was having the excruciating birth pain and was about to being sent to the operating theatre... i could imagine how traumatic it was...

The birth pains.. also reminded me of what God said to the serpent in Genesis chapter 3:

16 To the woman he said,

"I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing;

with pain you will give birth to children.

Your desire will be for your husband,

and he will rule over you."

But the good news is... Christ has redeemed us. There are testimonies of women giving birth to babies without having to go through the usual birth pains (miraculous birth).. it does happen today.

Later while i was spending time with God.. i opened the Bible and my eyes fall on Isaiah 26. I was feeling a bit discouraged and down 2 days ago.. my heart feeling so pain (the pain of being misunderstood, rejection etc)... at the edge of giving up... standing near the corner of the street... i need the presence of God like never before...

The verses on 17 & 18 really shaked me up..

17 As a woman with child and about to give birth writhes and cries out in her pain, so were we in your presence, O LORD.
18 We were with child, we writhed in pain, but we gave birth to wind. We have not brought salvation to the earth; we have not given birth to people of the world.

Just the same for the process of physical child delivering, there is normal to have birth pains for spiritual child delivering too. My spiritual eyes were opened widely for that.

i checked the meaning for 'writhes' in the online dictionary.. it means:

-To twist, as in pain, struggle, or embarrassment.

-To suffer acutely.

Later in the evening, God blessed me with the opportunity of sharing God's love to a fren again... and what was spoken actually turn out to be the same message in church during Sunday service.

I feel that God is assuring me that... "my daughter, dun have to worry, it's about me working through you.. and I would help you through it all... dun give up... perseveres on it... just like the joy that a mother has after she has given birth to baby/s... one day your joy would be complete too!"

Now i'm able to understand fully why i would have that 'thought' on a Saturday morning.

當你走到無力 Spiritually fatique?

Came across this hymn from a fren on facebook.. a note that posted there. I was stunned for a while when i first look at the title of the note as it was something that in my mind which i'm finding it hard to put into words. A syndrome which has been there for a couple of days... mixed feeling... multiple factors... come together with insomnia as the symptom (or should i say it's a package?). If to put it into a graph... i would said the graph reached its peak today after church. Feeling a bit "fatique spiritually"... wasn't talk or listen as much to one of my gal fren as i used to on my way back from church too. I reckoned that the tiredness is partly caused by insomnia... the impatience to wait for the harvesting season (just like what pastor preached in church today) by forcing things to happen before the ripen season etc.

Nevertheless, here goes the lyrics for the hymn...

詩集：美麗傳奇第二集－神蹟，第5首

當你走到無力繼續下去，當你感到寂寞困惱空虛，
只要相信神隨時扶助你，願助你解開困惑拋開痛悲。
當你跑到疲乏難再下去，當你感到疑惑說我是誰，
只要相信神完全明白你，就讓你伸手接受祂深愛你。
別害怕祂知你難受，擔當軟弱與困憂，
不需再懼怕，耶穌必拯救，願你開口接受，張開你手。
別害怕祂知你難受，擔當軟弱與困憂，
不需再懼怕，耶穌必拯救，讓你一生快樂展翅高飛，一個全新的你。