The Sense of Helplessness

Have you ever had a sense of helplessness in your life?? How did you feel? How did you overcome it?

I was locked in the lift the other day. It happened to me twice in a week time. Well, never thought that it would happen to me. Though it's a very common scene in those HK drama or movie. For those shows, very often it just happen at the right timing for some reasons behind (those who watch it will know what I mean = P). As for me, it's something that i been thinking how would I react if it really happen to me one day. Though it might sounds strange as who in the world would like to have this kind of experience?

Well, the first time.. a not so bad one as at least my two friends were able to help me open the door by pushing it and it only took a couple of minutes. It happened when the lift reached my floor.. and while the door was opening.. it just stopped at the very beginning of it. All it left is a small opening.. and i was stunned for a moment. After my mind accepted the fact that the lift is not working and i was locked inside, i was trying to figure out way/s to rescue myself. First, i pressed the "bell" sign botton. Well, in my mind i was actually wondering whether would anyone come and answer me. Thank God that there was someone around and talked to me. The thing is.. it's in Russian.. So...? It means that I think I need to seek help from my friends. I had some thoughts on who should I call etc.. at the same time I afraid to disturb them. In the end, I decided to call Mike and Jack. Both of them are my good brothers. They're among those whom I could count on when I need help. Really thank God for blessing me with brothers and sisters who are always there to help and care when I need.

Actually I'm not those type of people who are good at seeking help from others. And I would try my best to avoid seeking favor from others if possible.. and if i did.. it means that I did really give a thought on it. I just dislike the feeling... and it's something that I need to work on with God's help... learning to be not so self-dependent and accept help from others. A friend of mine (my spiritual mentor cum fren) commented that female should behave more weak outwardly. And let male play the stronger or protective role.

A week later, it happened again.. well i would say a not so pleasant one as compared to the first time. God knows how i felt. I was actually being locked for about an hour inside this time round. The lift just stopped while it was on its way up.. not long after i went inside. Though i had the previous experience.. but i still couldn't help except stunned. I called Mike. Poor him.. running up and down the staircase helping me to inform the guard etc...
Michael, really appreciate your help.

I felt really upset and helpless (also a reminder that we as a human are not able to have the control in life except God Himself) inside the lift this time round. I had my reasons for feeling so.. example I was supposed to see a teacher as I promised and made the appointment with her. Knowing that it was very unlikely for me to see her in time.. felt like a break of promise on my part.
Secondly, i was supposed to go for philosopy lecture by 12:30pm..

The unfulfilled promise.. suddenly.. a vision was running through my mind. A picture of a prisoner who was sentenced to be locked in a jail for life. One who had made a promise to his family.. saying that he would take good care of them for the rest of his life. How would he feels when he was locked inside the prison?? How about those who are still taken captive by the evil ones in their mind? I think what I had experienced (the little suffering) is nothing when compared to them who are being locked in a prison and those who are taking captive in their mind.

As a metaphor to that. My question is:"How would I be today if Jesus never came into my life to rescue me at the point of time when I needed Him the most..?"

Nothing but His love is able to change people's lives (by setting people free).